Laura. INFP. UCF graduate & WDW cast member.
Embracing all. Amor Fati. <3
Instagram: have_perspective "The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep, loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen."
"Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass."
Amor Fati is Latin for “love of fate” or “love of one’s fate”. It’s used to describe an attitude in which one sees everything that happens in one’s life, including suffering and loss, as good (i.e., necessary).
When I consider how my life has panned out over these last few years, I smile to myself. There is so much to be said, but the meaning behind the phrase amor fati sums up the attitude I’ve gleaned from it all. Perhaps some of you can relate to it, or are on your way to feeling it. I just figured I’d share its meaning in hopes that it could bring comfort, resonance, or even just brain stimulation to any of you who like to get them cogs turning as much as I do. ;)
A very special person that I never imagined I would see again came back into my life within the last few days, which was really just the icing on the cheesecake (cheesecake > cake) to these amor fati feels I’ve had for the last year. I am completely overcome by gratitude, and it really feels as if everything has come full circle. What a crazy, exhilarating ride.
As humans, we strive for clarity. For the sake of lowering stress levels, I am learning to be content with uncertainty, to be okay with not understanding everything. However, the way things have panned out as of late make so much sense to me in the grand scheme of things that I am really quite baffled by it all.
The kind of overwhelming sadness and distress that once caused me to question if I wanted to keep living are now emotions that I welcome with an open embrace; in retrospect, I realize that they have especially added to the fullness of my life experience, in all the fluctuating highs and lows that bring me a deeper understanding and appreciation of this human journey. Interestingly enough, I’m currently not in a great mood, though it likely appears otherwise based on how I’m expressing myself. Since I’m not resisting the unpleasant feelings, I can still feel content while in a bad mood. The key is not to resist painful emotions. Let yourself feel everything! We require these emotional fluctuations to feel most alive, you know?
I just wanted to remind you all of patience, if this is something that might speak to you at this point in your life. Have patience with yourself, have patience with ‘time’. If you choose to see it, one day you’ll reflect and realize that all along, the universe has been conspiring to make things work out for you. Everything is necessary. Everything is welcomed. And, Love is all that really matters.